Sick Of This Shit!

Ahh I am so sick of this!!

Everytime I go by or even say something to her, she asks stuff like "Why, isn't Christina with you?" and whenever she wants to say anything at all to me, she mockingly asks Chris permission first. It's pissing me off...!

And on Friday, she called me towards her and Sudee whispered something in her ear and Avi talked normally to me but after a while, she just asks me - bam, outta the blue - "Are you in love with Juleef?" and Sudee just nudged her and looked away.

I got really pissed off and just snapped "No! No way!" and then Sudee nudges her again and Avi says "No, I mean as a friend" to change the subject and I just said "Yeah sure, as a friend"

And then Sudee whispers "Ask her" and Avi says "You know, right? About Sudee and Juleef?". I said "Yeah, I've known for some time" and they got so shocked and stuff but I just kept my mouth shut.

God, they think I'm so pissed off with them because I like Juleef or something. That is so effing ridiculous!

I'm so pissed off that they obviously dont trust me enough to tell me.

And then Avi just said this:

Avi

oi wen dd u guys go 2 excel

?

8:40pmMe

today

8:40pmAvi

y dd u go?

8:41pmMe

senu wanted to go so we hurriedly got some people together

it was all a mad rush men

8:41pmAvi

oh ryt''

awsm

y ddnt christina cm

yuh 4gt me neh

fine

fine

dz proves dah u r vth senu nd dem oki

8:41pmMe

noo we didnt have time to invite so many people

8:41pmAvi

thought dah evrythin was ovr'

8:41pmMe

besides it was senu's idea na

8:42pmAvi

u shut up nd listnnow

even on friday wen i was takin vth yuh

u ddnt show ani interest

polus u werent dah anu i used 2 noe

plus

u hv changed

u stay vth christina always

i dnt cre

u cnt even go ani whr

shez tellin yuh 2 cm

I'm soooo freaking pissed off atm.

I just want to get the guts to say what I feel to her:

"Avi, seriously. Before you go around telling me that I have changed, honestly take a good look at yourself. Who's the person who's found new friends? I'm still friends with the same old people I knew from before. I'm still friends with Nathasha, Ashan, Suchi, Julian, Prashan, Atheeq, Duli, Sumaya, Nardy - ALL of them. All the people from our old class.

But you say you and Sudee are the only two people who didnt change and/or didnt make new friends and who stuck together. Do you seriously think that it was aaaaall of us people who changed or just the two of you? You might not realize it but think about it.

And there's so much more but I just can't get bothered saying all of this because I'm not pissed with you. I'm just reeeeally hurt that you and Sudee obviously don't trust me enough and that it's you two who've found new friends and stuff but accuse me of being two-faced and/or whatever"

Seriously. Even Prashan and Ashan said that Avi and Sudee have changed. So did Atheeq but it was Ash and Proosh saying so which really convinced me of this.

I actually do like Nadiya but seriously, after she came it was aaaaall about her - no time for anybody else. Prashan got completely kicked aside and he drifts from person to person. Ash is aaall alone and depressed cuz now Avi and Sudee aren't close to him any more. Sumaya is forced to spend time with the others cuz Avi doesnt have time for her. I stuck with the people who I felt comfortable with i.e. anyone but them.

And after Sudee started going out with Juleef, it's all *whisper whisper* They didn't even tell me. They kept it a secret from me. Juleef had to tell me which was what hurt me most. That JULEEF is closer to me than Sudee is...

And it's not just this. There's sooooo much more that's just way too depressing to write.

Whatever. I don't think I can ever forgive the both of them.