Heartbroken

The only guys I've ever cried over were the ones who I thought would never ever make me cry. Ashan and Julian.

It might be only a joke but that has been the one thing I've been worried about this entire year. How many times have I written on this thing that I couldn't stand not being able to talk to Ashan, how much I've been worried that he'll drift away. He's been the best friend I've ever had.

Avi says that she sees something different. Well, guess what? It's what you don't see that's really hurting me.

I hate them, I hate them.

When I found out that, out of all my friends, only I'd been chosen for Prefectship, I kept telling myself that there was no way I'd lose them because they were my real friends and shit. With ONE DAY left, I find out otherwise.

I hang out with Lucky and Senu because they're in my class!! If they weren't, I wouldn't know them. Ashan and them, NONE of them are in my class. I don't know how I could have ever kept in touch with them. I'm good with Prashan because he's also a Prefect. If anyone asks him, he'd say the same thing :P

It's so easy for them to say. THEY HAVE NO IDEA!

No idea how impossible it was to stay in touch properly.

No idea how busy I've been.

No bloody idea how much this thing has bothered me this entire year.

No idea how hard I tried.